Forgiveness

Forgiveness…………

What is there to say? I have stared at this word for quite some time in my mind, watched it turn over and over trying to figure it out. What does it mean? More importantly what does it mean for everybody else? There are several different meanings and views just on this one concept, this one concept that could be so simple but is so unbelievably complicated for the human race to understand. A difficult concept for the human race to use. If you look up the definition to forgive in the dictionary you will find the simple explanation; to cease to feel resentment against, to grand pardon or remission. Simple. But very vague. So let me try and give you the biggest possible explanation ever without complication. To forgive is one of the hardest things to do, it is putting somebody ahead of yourself, taking somebody else into deep consideration. Sometimes things happen, things beyond our control, mistakes that get out of hand, or chaos that can't be resolved, sometimes we loss ourselves. In that process we tend to hurt the people we love most, we give in to the darkness and relinquish what we know is right. However, when we are lucky, when you are the luckiest person on earth, sometimes that person you are watching do all of these things, they come to the realization of it. Now this is your turn, now you have to decide what to do. They hurt you, they made you feel awful, they destroyed every single part of you and yet here you stand. But are you standing with open arms? We are human, and we are absolutely incredibly idiotic all of the time. Some of us more than others. We are all struggling with something, whether it is big or small, mediocre or life altering, emotional or draining, we are all going through something right now. And for some people these things get the best of them, they get so caught up in their problems they lose themselves, and that's when the damage occurs. It's immensely painful to watch the person you care about go through this over and over and try to be there all the time. But to them it is crucial that you are no matter how much it may seem as if they don't want you there. Perhaps they truly don't, but in my experience you may to have to push your way through the walls. Even the biggest of mistakes can be forgiven. All it takes is strength. So much strength! To be able to overcome your own feelings, your own grief, pain and sadness, to care so much for one person that your severe anger can settle and you can actually look them in the eye and feel how you felt before it all. That is forgiveness. It's an absolute miracle beyond the word, but to actually watch it happen that is the miracle, the gift. I have seen a family be torn apart by the overpowering darkness that creeps into our lives in the worst possible way. And I watched that darkness wait there feeding off of the glory for years until finally it couldn't anymore. Until finally somebody decided to forgive. To allow the light back in. And out of that forgiveness came so much joy and happiness I couldn't even begin to describe it to you, but it was the most amazing thing to watch and be a part of. All it took was relinquishing the fear, and the guilt. We aren't broken, but sometimes we break. Everything that is broken has the chance to be fixed however much you do or don't want it to be. The cliché is to listen to your heart instead of always listening to your rational mind. This is what forgiveness means to me, and until now I never noticed it rub off onto anybody else. So the question now still stands, what does it mean to everybody else?